realization(i now i probly spelled that wrong but i dont care)

im in my room, laying down, and wishing vladimir waz laying next to me holding me, and i realized something. if i wanted to, me and vladimir could do whatever we wanted, i could walk out of my room at 11:00 at night, and not come ome until 4:00 in the morning. i would seriously do that if i had no respect for my , mother, but since i do, i would never do that to her. and i honestly feel like when her and rob sit there and yell at me, telling me i have no respect and no privilagez, it hurtz, and it pissez me off, because like i said, if i had az little respect for my mother az they say i do, i would do whatever the fuck i wanted to do. i did one thing wrong in a whole 13 yearz and they think they can condem me to my room, no, see, life dont work that way. i mean yea, if i waz my mom, and i read a piece of paper, saying that i loved my middle school sweetheart, and i wanted to get married, and that i wanted kidz, yea i guess id have a right to flip out on my daughter when i fnd out that my thirteen year old sneaked over her boyfriend at 11:00 at night, and they sleep in the same bed. but then again, i thought she would under stand, yea my mom said she haz never done anything like that when she waz my age, but i honestly cant believe that. signed ~te'amo papi~

sometimez certain thingz get you thinking about other thingz

im so happy, lifez great. im starting driverz training next summer, so then i can get around all by myself, and i am starting to gain independence, i love it. im with an amazing guy, vladimir torres-abrego, i am getting by in school, im starting to thin out, im looking for a job so i can pay for my own car, that way i can honestly say that i earned everything i needed, without the assistance of my mother, or my in-decisive father. and i cant wait till i start driveing, i will do my best never to be in my house, and i will try to be with vladimir whenever i get the chance. and then i can get a small apartment and move in with vladimir. thatz how my life will go. or at least that the way i want it to go, then i will go off and have kidz, possibly get married, and just see where life takez me, i am completely loveing life, and someone today tolled me that being grown up iznt alwayz az fun az it soundz, and i totally get that when i get older, i have to pay billz and find babysitterz and everything else. I LOVE MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. i just wish me and vladimir could grow up already.