iz it normal to...................

iz it normal to worry? iz it normal to stay up all night and wonder? iz it normal to cry because you miss the sound of hiz voice? yesturday vladimir and i had a nice conversation over the phone like alwayz....and i waz goin to have him call me back around 3:30 and then he waz gonna come over and hang out, but he never called. i called him about.....3 or 4 tmz and then after tht i called and hiz grandma answered "beuno" "iz vladimir there?" "no he'z at hiz grandpa'z laundry matt today"...."okay, bye" "bye" 2 hourz after tht i had my little brother call and ask fr him, but he messed with the phone cord and the call waz dropped. i stopped calling after i called again and irene (hiz sister) picked up. "iz vladimir there?" "i have no idea" "okay" "okay" then the line went dead. itz been about......4 hourz since the last time i got to hear vladimirz voice. and im goin insane. i have no idea whatz going on with him and what hez doin. i know hez not cheating on me because he iz a faithful and trustworthy boyfriend and i loce him with all that iz my heart. deal with it. but i cant help but to thnk "what if he got hurt" or "wht if he got himself in more trouble" it makez me sad tht i havent heard hiz voice all day but i think itz okay, because i knw he iz useing hiz mind, nd he iz thinking bout me...i hope he'z thinkin bout me ayway, who knowz.....i'll let ya know 2maro

white people & mexicanz lol

ive noiced that vladimirz family (the 1'z i know anyway) all favor white people! haha, emmanuel, iz dateing a white girl, vladimirz dateing me, im white, kayla iz dateing a white boy, jaime gt a white girl pregnant and had a kid, wooooww, i just noticed that, i have a feeling that their family dnt care about what color the kidz'z bf'z or gf'z are, which iz a good thing. so i guess hiz family iz a lil more acceptive than i thought, i still dnt think hiz momz gonna like me because im....me. i dnt know how to speak spanish. i cnt undrstand spanish, and im not very...outspoken. i dnt yell at vlad 4 anything, and i treat him right. i love my papi with all my heart, itz amazig to think bout how someone az awesome az vladimir could possibly love a wierd girl like me, but he sayz he lovez me and i believe him, because i love him to.

family

family iz a hard thing for me to talk about, i dont really get along with most of my dadz family because i dont talk to him. im terrified to get to know vladimirz mom, i dont want to say or do something stupid and then have her hate me. trust me, ive been on the badside of a boyfriendz mother befor, and it suckz because she wont like me. she scarez me, almost everytime im on the phone with my papi, shez either yelling and screaming or being silly. itz really interesting. im afraid of her, and im sure that i have nothing to worry about, im sure shez nice when she wantz to be, and im sure that se'll like me. but herez the thing, ive been "sure" anout thingz in the past, and ive been wrong about almost evey1. i swear to god she scarez me. and im trying to get to know hiz cousinz and auntz and unclez and az much of hiz family as i can. i met hiz cousin isabelle and she waz nice, she seemz like a godd persn and shez funny, and she thinkz that me and vladimir are addorable. haha, and shez beautiful, shez got that "abrego" noze, apparently itz a family thing haha, i know hiz cousin emmanuel, hez a friend type-a-thing and then i kinda sorta know hiz brother. and i think that they like me so far so, i havet really done anything to get on their bad side i dont think anyway

realization(i now i probly spelled that wrong but i dont care)

im in my room, laying down, and wishing vladimir waz laying next to me holding me, and i realized something. if i wanted to, me and vladimir could do whatever we wanted, i could walk out of my room at 11:00 at night, and not come ome until 4:00 in the morning. i would seriously do that if i had no respect for my , mother, but since i do, i would never do that to her. and i honestly feel like when her and rob sit there and yell at me, telling me i have no respect and no privilagez, it hurtz, and it pissez me off, because like i said, if i had az little respect for my mother az they say i do, i would do whatever the fuck i wanted to do. i did one thing wrong in a whole 13 yearz and they think they can condem me to my room, no, see, life dont work that way. i mean yea, if i waz my mom, and i read a piece of paper, saying that i loved my middle school sweetheart, and i wanted to get married, and that i wanted kidz, yea i guess id have a right to flip out on my daughter when i fnd out that my thirteen year old sneaked over her boyfriend at 11:00 at night, and they sleep in the same bed. but then again, i thought she would under stand, yea my mom said she haz never done anything like that when she waz my age, but i honestly cant believe that. signed ~te'amo papi~

sometimez certain thingz get you thinking about other thingz

im so happy, lifez great. im starting driverz training next summer, so then i can get around all by myself, and i am starting to gain independence, i love it. im with an amazing guy, vladimir torres-abrego, i am getting by in school, im starting to thin out, im looking for a job so i can pay for my own car, that way i can honestly say that i earned everything i needed, without the assistance of my mother, or my in-decisive father. and i cant wait till i start driveing, i will do my best never to be in my house, and i will try to be with vladimir whenever i get the chance. and then i can get a small apartment and move in with vladimir. thatz how my life will go. or at least that the way i want it to go, then i will go off and have kidz, possibly get married, and just see where life takez me, i am completely loveing life, and someone today tolled me that being grown up iznt alwayz az fun az it soundz, and i totally get that when i get older, i have to pay billz and find babysitterz and everything else. I LOVE MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. i just wish me and vladimir could grow up already.

i realized....

I had a very interesting talk with a woman named eva, she livez in a trailor in the park that i live in and it waz a very interesting talk. it waz about...life, it started out as a conversation about what happend with vladimir and i, and then it turned into something else when i talked to her it waz like i waz talking to a friend from school. and i like that i have someone in the trailor park to talk too. it waz nice really, she understood my points and my opinoins and everything waz so easy to talk to her about. she gave me feedback and it waz nice i understood someone elses opinons and i didnt mind them at all. it waz fun. And i realized this particular blog intry waznt really about vladimir, but i felt like blogging about somethin else, and itz okay because im the writer of theze blogz haha.

signed

skyler torres abrego A.K.A. Te'Amo Papi

trouble

wow, it waz interesting. i called vladimir arund 6:00 pm and he waz upstairz, so i hung up and about five minutez afte i hug up, he called me back. we waz on the phone for about an hour, and then it started. Miguel started an arguement, and waz seriously startingto bug vladimir, and when he went to yell at miguel, hiz mom goton the phone and yelled at him. he didnt derserve it. i knew what waz gonna happen, vladimir waz gonna get pissed off, and then he waz gonna take off in the middle of the night again. i couldnt do it, i couldnt sit there, and wonder where he waz and wnder if he waz okay or not. so i did something i shouldnt have. i told him to come over to my house, because i waned to know where he waz and what he waz doing. he walked 7 milez just because i asked him to, and because he wanted to see me. i waz so happy, but i waz also worried, because right before vladimir got here, hiz mother called me and this iz how the coversation went : "iz vladimir there?" "no, not right now" "hiz brother said he told im that he waz going to you're house" "hez not here right now, he might be on hiz way, but hez not her right now" "hez not?" "no" "okay bye" bye" that waz the extent of the conversation. Not even five minutez after i hung up the phone, i look out my window to see my papi walking up to my trailor. "stay there, imma come outside" "okay" then i got up out of my chair and walked outside. Vladimir and i waz on the back porch for about two hourz, the misquitoz were horrible. but it waz worth it. i asked him about what happend at hiz house, and he told me, he started to cry, and i gave him a hug. then we went into my house, and into my room. we talked, we kissed alot, and then i fell asleep. the next morning when i woke up, he waz still there nxt to me, i love him so much. then later that day hiz mom drove to my house and busted me and him, i got grounded for two weekz, and az of right now, im ungrounded. it waz all worth it, getting ate up by bugz, and getting punished after i gt caught, and im glad i did what i did, i dont regret anything.